9 AUGUST 2007


it was horrible.
saddening i can tell.
it all started today
when i was practicing the HSM dance moves
i practiced hard as can be.
day and night.as hardworking as an ant.
i did missed THREE days of practice.
thats all.
then i went to school.
and after recess was moral.
i went upstairs and a few minutes later
cassandra arrived at my class.
she called me out for a purpose.
saying that i have been kicked of the dancing team.
i was so angry and depressed.
i practiced so hard and just
cuz i missed THREE days of practice.
doesnt mean i have to be kick off the team!
urgh.
this is what cassandra said before i "Fainted"


cassandra: umm...Pn. sangeetha said that you dont have to dance anymore. Because youre missing some practice. and there is not enough time for you to learn ALL the dance moves in one day.


i mean i voluntered myself to join it.
plus there is like 3,000 waiting for you to win
and its not for the dancers !
its for the school curriculum for goodness sake!
and i voluntered my self!
isnt that already good enough?!
so practically i spared my time
waking up every morning ( 7:00 am!)
and also practiced day and night
plus tried to make it but unfortunately i cant!
(well its not like my problem! i had to go to the dentist)
so all for that and it turns out..
im not even in it.
so actually im wasting my time
waking up so freaking early just to practice
and i get not even a single cent!
so its already obvious that
when they need somebody then they'll turn to me.
and when they got more than enough
they smash you down like a mushed up potato
waiting to be crushed!
and its like in your face you know?
i mean c'mon!
its not like you hired a PROFFESIONAL cheoreographer
to come and teach you the steps that cost you 9000 buckz!
its free.so missing a practice is not like youve lost everything
and you cant catch up with the dance moves!
so frustrated now.

well i guess God has plans for everything..
and there's a reason to all plans that He has in mind
maybe the reason i got kicked off is;
because God wanna take of problems of my shoulders!
yeah!
cuz i have like :

HSM dance practice(everyday:8-10am)
-costumes;i dunno what to wear!
-my dance moves! still havent learn them all
-practice; its tense!
-every wednesday cant make it
sivic project(cMing soon;preperation)
exams(cMing soon)
-8 more weeks!
braces appointments (every wednesday)
-not enough time to go school
-force self to go but gets detention
-cant eat ; painful!
wood project(every wednesday)
-force self to go cause this
prom date(hehe..maybe,maybe not)
-no date.will be awkward!
school homeworks(everyday!)
-any subjects!
going to school(its problematic every wednesday!)
- cuz of braces appointments
(the procedures takes a long time)
-then come back late.
-missed practice on every wednesday


ok i think thats it.all my problems(and its elaboration)every week!
so now that God is taking care of the HSM problems
i guess it'll just bewithout the HSM dance
so the "beban" is lighter now.
i can have more ME-time of my own..
aaahhhh...
so thats like the pros and cons of not being in the team!

ok oof to do someone's cbox..bye!

tRacY xoxo