My year in 2008 started of perfectly.
well, not perfectly but okay.
then the whole world started tumbling down.
2008 was filled with gloominess.
i am now in 3 Liparis; trust me, it sucks so bad.

i have practically no friends AT ALL. none. nada. done. the end.
Teachers are just like medium sized monsters lurking at the school grounds.
All i ever did in this first day was -

routine 1
: stare at people chatting.
routine 2
: drank a sip of water
routine 3
: stare at people chatting
routine 4
: drank a sip of water.

.. and so on.

i feel like breakingdown and just let my anger out at home
and thats what i did.
i just took a pillow and just shove it to my face and just scream like no one in the world cares what you're doing.

They say "life is full of suprises."

it really was true then.
ive NEVER expected to see my world living this way.
filled with betrayers and loneliness.
And for the first time, im looking up to this song. for now.

LONELY - AKON

Lonely I'm so lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

and this one, is one of the sentence in Boys Like Girls song, Thunder.
it really means alot for what im feeling.

" Today Is A Winding Road, Its Taking Me To Places That I Didnt Wanna Go"

but then, as i said before, God has plans for everything.
for the first one, whats the point of joining that HSM team anyways? right? they didnt win
for now, we'll just have to wait and see.

god. i hate my life ):

ps. that lonely song is not really suitable. but whatever. it still entitled lonely. but Akon meant that he doesnt has a girl to be with him. but i meant the other way.

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