December 20, 2011
I DIDN'T WANNA POST THIS UP AT FIRST
But I still can't get over it and maybe blogging about it may help.
Well, I never really knew Shawne. We're just one of those hi/bye friends in high school. And the last time I saw him was last year before High School ended. We've never been in the same class, the closest I got to be with him was just a 'hey' and nothing else.
But I never knew that on the 20th December, someone that I knew would pass on. I never thought it would be someone I knew (unless of old age).
This definitely gave a huge wake up call to everyone who knew him, personally or not, that we should appreciate life and be thankful for what we have.
But as they always say, we shouldn't be sad for those who have died. Never show a tear on their funeral because it means that we're holding on to someone that isn't there, not anymore. When we hold on to him, it makes him hold on too, and he'd never cross over to rest in peace. It's hard to explain but I hope it makes sense and that I'm not just explaining invisible things.
Everything that I'm doing now (literally, everything) would make me think of Shawne. And it's funny because I never knew him that well. It's been a couple of days since he has passed and honestly, I couldn't go to bed without thinking about his death. He will always be in my prayers.
Maybe God took him away because he has better plans for him. Maybe he's "duty" on Earth is over. Everyone should accept that he's in a better place now - but it's easier said than done.
Walking in to his house on Tuesday was really indescribable. How could he be the one who's gone? To us, it wasn't time. It was too soon. I never thought I would cry right after seeing him for the last time that day, though I told myself not to - I just couldn't help it. For a moment he was just a guy in my school that I barely knew and now he's someone who's constantly on my mind these couple of days.
Some may have loads of memories with him but I don't, and right now I'm haunted by the last image I have of him in his casket, wishing that it was all a joke and everything could go back to where they were.
Rest in Peace, Shine Shawne.
1993 - 2011
But I still can't get over it and maybe blogging about it may help.
Well, I never really knew Shawne. We're just one of those hi/bye friends in high school. And the last time I saw him was last year before High School ended. We've never been in the same class, the closest I got to be with him was just a 'hey' and nothing else.
But I never knew that on the 20th December, someone that I knew would pass on. I never thought it would be someone I knew (unless of old age).
This definitely gave a huge wake up call to everyone who knew him, personally or not, that we should appreciate life and be thankful for what we have.
But as they always say, we shouldn't be sad for those who have died. Never show a tear on their funeral because it means that we're holding on to someone that isn't there, not anymore. When we hold on to him, it makes him hold on too, and he'd never cross over to rest in peace. It's hard to explain but I hope it makes sense and that I'm not just explaining invisible things.
Everything that I'm doing now (literally, everything) would make me think of Shawne. And it's funny because I never knew him that well. It's been a couple of days since he has passed and honestly, I couldn't go to bed without thinking about his death. He will always be in my prayers.
Maybe God took him away because he has better plans for him. Maybe he's "duty" on Earth is over. Everyone should accept that he's in a better place now - but it's easier said than done.
Walking in to his house on Tuesday was really indescribable. How could he be the one who's gone? To us, it wasn't time. It was too soon. I never thought I would cry right after seeing him for the last time that day, though I told myself not to - I just couldn't help it. For a moment he was just a guy in my school that I barely knew and now he's someone who's constantly on my mind these couple of days.
Some may have loads of memories with him but I don't, and right now I'm haunted by the last image I have of him in his casket, wishing that it was all a joke and everything could go back to where they were.
Rest in Peace, Shine Shawne.
1993 - 2011
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